Life is so funny. Seriously. There is no other word to describe it. Just when I thought I am through the hardest two years of my life, I can see nothing but storms and mountains bigger than what I just scaled, right in front of me. And this time its my personal life. Yes. One can never have everything in life. It's always either this or that. We are the choices we make.
I graduate next week. With two graduate degrees from Carnegie Mellon University. All those countless sleepless nights on campus, in the library, in the lab, in empty classrooms, working hard, just for a better future seems all a lie. Nobody told me there is no "better" future. It's just another set of hardships. Another new struggle. No happiness. It's like every decision I make is wrong. Because inpite of working really hard and sincerely, I am just being shoved into a deeper pit as soon as I think I have accomplished something. My self esteem and respect has been shattered to pieces. There is no point being strong.
For once I actually thought I was going to be happy. With a degree, (hopefully) a well paying job so that I can clear my loan quickly and then go back to India and marry the love of my life.
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